Originally posted @ tatsukida.pitas.com on August 7, 2012
Cover page: “Happy 15th Dessert [magazine]
Anniversary!!!!! Volume 10 will come out on August 10th!! Anime showing
on October 2012!!”
Title: Going to see the World[/‘Come and see
his world’ seems more right ^^;] Blurb: “Shizuku and Haru had bid
farewell(!?) to Yuuzan’s birthday party. Afterwards, the two had come to
have some development. Let us start by going back to Haru’s past..” It
is the middle of summer and the cicadas are chirping. The brothers are
reading books in the living room. Yuuzan read out loud, “And then,
Mother Rabbit said, ‘If you become a sailboat to run away, I will become
the wind so that I can blow you to the place where I want you to go.’”
Haru is also reading out loud, “Belong to the insect class of the
Lepidoptera order, the swallowtail’s habitat is.. Okinawa islands, apart
from other places. You can gather them at the hilltop’s meadows or
other places where it can easily be found.” Yuuzan looked at his brother
then started to shout, “Auntie, Auntie-!” While hanging the clothes to
dry, an older woman said that she is coming. “What is it, young master
Yuuzan?” Excited Yuuzan shouted for her to look, Haru can unexpectedly
read this kind of book. Holding his book, Haru said that he found it at
the bookstore. Aunt said that it is an insect illustration book. “Ah,
young master Haru always read that. He really likes that kind of living
things. Ugh! Young master Haru, how come you’re all covered in
pee[/urine]!!” Yuuzan proudly told Haru that he is amazing for right
now, those are the things that he[Yuuzan] can’t understand. “In the
future, will you become a famous insect doctor!?” Haru blushed a bit
while looking at happy Yuuzan. Narration: “Generally, that was my first
memory.” Later on, the aunt is talking with someone on the phone. “—Yes,
yes, I understand.” Sitting on top of the tree, Haru held out his hand
to a dark colored butterfly. Haru said that it is a Chinese Windmill
[species of red-bodied swallowtail butterfly, Atrophaneura alcinous]
Then, he noticed Yuuzan running towards him. Haru happily called out to
him to tell him that he had found the Chinese Windmill’s flight path,
and at that side, there is a bud moth [<- I’m guessing that because I
can’t find the English name. It is something like a black-white leaf
moth, literally] Yuuzan shouted for Haru to be happy for they can go
back. “Go back to father’s side!”
Narration: “When I was 7 years old, at the time when summer is
ending, I and Yuuzan went to the Yoshida residence.” While Haru is
tensely standing behind, nervous Yuuzan said, “Ni.nice to meet you, I’m
Yuuzan, the older brother, and this is my younger brother, Haru.” Haru
looked in front and thought that it is such a big house. Narration: “In
passing, let me say a word. At that time, I was afraid of a change in
the surroundings that I was prepared to run away. In the bedroom, Yuuzan
is wearing a smile on his face when he caught me. *Yuuzan wrapped
crying and flustered Haru in a blanket and tied him up* From the start,
that person has this gentle smile on his face but he has a nature of not
tolerating other people’s explanation[/protest]. Even if this is so,
making me decide to accept this opportunity of a new life is.. Yuuzan
looked really very happy.” At the train[?], Yuuzan dreamily looked out
the window and wondered what their father will say upon seeing them.
While still tied up in the blanket, Haru can only cry and mutter,
“Aunt..” He wondered what kind of person is their father. “It would be
good if he is a nice person. It would be good if we can be amicable and
got along well.” Then, at the house’s backyard, Yuuzan asked Haru what
he is doing in this place. “This is no good, how can you skip class. The
teacher is looking for you.” Waving a stick, Haru said that it is
because that guy is always asking him nonsense questions. “The teacher
will show me one card after another, asking me, ‘What is this’. He’s
treating me like an idiot. I hate this place. The people in this house
will always tell me to do this and do that. How annoying. They talk a
lot more than Aunt.” Yuuzan sadly said that it can’t be help because
they must endure it in order for them to continue on staying in this
place. Narration: “Ever since we came to his house, Yuuzan has become a
person who doesn’t smile.” The teacher[/tutor] said that next, he’ll
give Haru two minutes to answer those test questions. After the teacher
told him to start, Haru, with blank looking eyes, asked if he can use an
equation. The teacher nervously told him to compute it according to
what is written in the chapter. Haru pouts over this. And, while the
cicadas are chirping, Haru put his head on the table and wondered,
“..how come Yuuzan isn’t with me?” Later on, the teacher reported to
Haru’s father that Haru hates studying. “Not only that, lately his
grades in school is declining. ..I should say, during childhood, there
are incidents when a child would suddenly show an interest in a field
and will display fantastic ability-” At the side, Haru giggled and
thought, “Heh, serves you right.” Then, he noticed that Yuuzan is
standing behind him. He called out to Yuuzan but Yuuzan snubbed him and
walked away.
Soon, it is winter and it is snowing. Yuuzan sadly smiled and called
Haru. While Haru is walking behind him, Yuuzan asked why he suddenly run
away from home. “Could it be that you thought that you can go back to
aunt’s place? You’re so foolish. No matter if it’s me or it’s you, we
obviously have no place to go back to.” Haru thought, “..You’re wrong.
It is because I know you’ll come and look for me. It is because it has
already been such a long time since you, Yuuzan, had come to see my
face.” Haru asked him, “..Yuuzan, do you already hate me..?” While the
wind is blowing, Yuuzan turned around to him and muttered, “..it would
be good if it is like that.” Shielding his face from the wind, Haru
asked, “Huh..? Hey, what did you just say? *Yuuzan started to walk
away* Yuuzan, Yuu..” Soon, it is that fateful rainy day. Wet in the
rain, Yuuzan said, “..do you know, Haru? I heard that it is thanks to
you that we were able to come to this house. It is really great, Haru.
You’re the only one who is totally doted on. Ever since before, you
definitely don’t know what kind of feelings I have when I look at you.
..it will be good if you don’t exist. I’ve always been thinking of
that.” Haru looked at him and thought, “Did you always felt that way?
So, have I become a hindrance to you? How.. how come I wasn’t aware of
it?” Then, in elementary[?], a couple of guys were running at the
hallway. One of the guys accidentally bumped Haru. Haru glared at the
guy. To everyone’s surprise, Haru suddenly pulled the boy’s collar and
pushed him near the window. Haru is angrily shouting. End flashback.
Flashback 2: It is summer and the cicadas were chirping. While walking
home from shool, Yuuzan told Haru not to suddenly fight with a friend.
“You were obviously eager to get in elementary school. Could it be that
you’re not happy at school!?” Holding a stick, Haru said that it is
because that person said that he was abandoned and it made him angry.
“Forget it.. if they are willing to help and bring my homework then it
is okay to reconcile with them again! It is like when Yuuzan caught a
cold.” Yuuzan told him that no one goes to the house of a bullying
child. Haru pouted and waved the stick. Yuuzan smiled and said, “..If
you are feeling lonely, Haru, just tell me, okay? I’ll definitely create
a place where you’ll belong to.” Haru blushed a bit over this. Haru
told Yuuzan to also tell him if he hates something. Yuuzan looked
surprised and smiled. Haru smiled back. Narration: “..You’re really
stupid, Yuuzan. It is alright even if I don’t have that thing. Because,
for you to just smile, that is already the place where I belong.” End
Flashback 2.
Haru is sitting by some stairs when Andou calls out to him. Haru
glances at him then looks away again. Andou says that he is unexpectedly
in this place that it is really troublesome for him [Andou] that Haru
would unexpectedly walk around on his own. “Where is Miss Shizuku?” Haru
tells him that he doesn’t know about that. “She ought to have already
gone home.” Andou glances at Haru then says, “-I understand. Young
master, obviously it is of the same length but how come there is a
difference in mini-shirts between uniforms and casual clothes. When I
was in young master’s age, I also have been always thinking of that.” =P
Looking aghast, Haru tells him to please leave him alone. Standing up,
Haru says, “Didn’t we agree that you’ll closely watch over me until
today? You should already have no need of me, right? Goodbye, Andou.”
Andou looks a bit surprised by that. Walking in the streets, Haru
remembers Shizuku telling him that she isn’t the same with him and he
doesn’t understand her feelings.” Haru thinks, “I had enough. It really
makes me fretful[/impatient]. How come it always become like this? No
matter who, during some unknown time, they would drift away from me.”
Haru remembers Yuuzan telling Haru that he and Shizuku are the same
since they are disgusted with Haru’s lack of self-awareness. Then, the
passer-bys are surprised when Haru was hitting the vending machine. Haru
thinks, “..and in what area am I not aware of? It is because I don’t
understand this a bit that it always become like this. Stop joking
around. Shizuku is a girl whose thinking and action are totally the
same.” Scene 1: During midterm exam, angry Shizuku told Haru that she is
absolutely frustrated [/vexed that Haru is better than her]. Scene 2:
Haru invited her to a dolphin show but Shizuku who is reading a book,
said that she doesn’t want to go. Scene 3: When buying something to eat,
Shizuku ate it and said that this is yucky. Scene 4: Haru wondered if
it will be smoothly sailing for Shizuku when she enters society. Shizuku
thought that it seemed that Haru is thinking of something that will
make her angry.
Narration: “Always concentrating all her energy in doing something,
she will hold on to it to the death. It’s simply like looking at
oneself. I thought that there is an area where Shizuku and I can
possibly be similar. If it’s that girl, she should be able to understand
my feelings. [And], that kind of thing is impossible, right? *sitting
while drinking something from the vending machine* I suddenly feel very
tired. Since it always become like this, I might as well be all alone by
myself like this, and that’s it. I had already really put in a lot of
effort [into it].” Looking up the sky, Haru remembers Aunt Kyouko.
Flashback: Haru showed Kyouko some papers. He is flustered and tense
when Kyouko read the papers. He blushed when Kyouko told him something
about the papers. Then, he got angry [for interrupting?] when Mitsuyoshi
arrived with some food[?]. Then, one day, older Haru is reading a book.
Suddenly, Kyouko collapsed. He dropped his book and rushed to her. At
Yoshida residence, Mitsuyoshi knelt down [to beg for help?] from Taizou
who just snubbed him. Outside the room, Haru is crying and felt
helpless. Then, he saw Yuuzan looking at him. He quickly grabbed hold of
Yuuzan and asked for help. Yuuzan hit Haru’s hand away. Haru bend down
to his knees to plead for help. Yuuzan coldly looked at him and walked
away. While grinding his teeth, crying Haru looked angry at him. The
scene changes to [what seems to be near a field, baseball field, I think
based on the netted fence]. Five boys are ganging up on one guy. Haru
called out to a short haired boy [whom I think is Sasayan] and said that
boy, who is being beaten up, wears the same uniform as he does. “You
have seen it and yet, aren’t you going to help him?” Flustered and
tense, the short haired boy said that it is alright, anyway, they aren’t
friends. Blowing his chewing gum, Haru said, “-is that so. You’re
really such a horrid person” And, the flustered boy just watched as Haru
rushed to help the guy who is being beaten up. Later on, Haru is
bruised all over. Spitting out blood, Haru thought that it hurts. “I
want to go quickly to where aunt is.”
He walked past Asako, who is on her laptop computer, at a coffee
shop. He passed by Chizuru comforting Yuu who is hugging her. He walked
by Yamaken and the trio who were flirting with a flustered girl. Then,
he stopped to look at the sky[/sunset]. End flashback. Haru is looking
at the sky. Narration: “No matter when, this world is always quite
filthy. And, even now, this scene still hasn’t changed.” Haru remembers
Shizuku telling him that he fundamentally doesn’t understand her
feelings. Haru thinks, “..even if it is like that, why did you use that
kind of expression to say it, Shizuku? Wrong. The one who had made her
think that is me. I really want to ask her why she thought that way.
But.. *Haru replied to Shizuku that she, Yuuzan and the people in the
party, all of them can just get lost.* Definitely, it is already too
late.” In the women’s room, Shizuku had dressed back to her normal
clothes. She washes her face and felt that finally, she is quite
relaxed. While putting in the dress in a paper bag, Shizuku thinks that
she didn’t know that the [fake] eyelashes are stuck from outside and
it’s great that she didn’t dirty the dress. Looking serious, Shizuku
remembers Haru just walking away from her. She thinks that Haru didn’t
look straight at her even a little bit when he would always like to
stubbornly intrude into her vision. “..tomorrow, if I meet with Haru,
I’m going to apologize for only thinking of my own feelings. Afterwards,
I will talk with him just like before. It’s alright, Haru will
definitely smile and as usual, he’ll tell me, ‘is that so’.” Narration:
“After that, I knew that ‘ordinary[/the usual?]’ can be so easily
destroyed. On the second day, Haru didn’t go to school” Blurb: “This
time, definitely going to protect the[/our] world. Break on the next
chapter..so, will attach an anime special commemoration DVD.” [The
author always takes a month break after every 4 chapters when she
releases the volume compilation.]
Scans by 離境漢化組.
